Can't sleep 3:55am central time

Have you ever been in bed feeling like nothing can get you to sleep?

Oh yes, that's me. I never believed my boyfriend when he told me that he suffered from insomnia. It's pretty terrible. I am not currently suffering from it, but tonight I can't get to bed. This uneasiness made me realize what an unbeliaveable number of us take advantage of sleep. It's really a gift.

So sleep world, or those who CAN sleep and have lovely nightmares, or NOT (giggles). Seriously, those who can't, go see a doctor. 

http://sleepfoundation.org/sleep-disorders-problems/insomnia

Family

I often think that moving away from my family, for many reasons, will be good for me. I have to leave my nest and explore horizons that my eyes dare to see. But here and there, I have a feeling of remorse or even fear, that if I am not near my family, they will deteriorate without me. How selfish. How dare I think that I am some tough, unbreakable chain that keeps my family together? That's selfish.

Time and time, though, I find that even my presence will not change the decisions my loved ones will make. I often feel scared for them, when instead, I should welcome the changes that will come. I should love them for who they are and for the challenges they will face. I should rather love the simplicity of moving on.

I love you all. I remember the little ones when they were still in diapers, resistible to sleep! I remember their little bald heads and fat cheeks. I remember summers with my brother and sister chasing me down the house when I had stolen a favorite toy from them. I remember rolling down brushy hills a million times, and feeling an extreme itch all over afterwards. I will always cherish these memories.

It's time to let them fly. I have to let you go, but I love you. I always will. 

Feeling the Full Time

Wow!!

It's been so long since I visited this site, but it is very much needed right now!

I have recently been struggling with balancing my life. I recently obtained a full time job, and am responsible for a large part of my living expenses. It feels great to have a wonderful and rewarding job, don't get me wrong, but it's a little hard sometimes.

I guess, I thought I would be over this already since I've been at my job for 4 months now. It looks like it takes longer than what I assumed. The latest struggle I've been dealing with is my sleep schedule. I can't quite figure it out; I can't wake up in the morning! I guess my question as I lay there is: "Why do I need to get up?"

It's hard.

I've also been drinking coffee EVERYDAY. It's kind of out of control. You know I recently started a new eating lifestyle, I moved into a new apartment in October, my parents may divorce soon, and as I am writing this, I realize these are very recent changes in my life.

Is this why I feel so overwhelmed!?

Feel free to post comments :)

SAME LOVE!

Great Video by Macklemore about same [sex] love. Let us one day reach acceptance and equality for whoever you fall in love with!!!

LET SOCIETY REALIZE WE ARE ALL MEANT TO LOVE WHOEVER WE CHOOSE!

The Fall semester is over 20

AHHHH the semester is over!!!!!!!!!
I am so excited!
I want to do a million things that I had not done because I had to worry about school first.
Go to the park. Take a run. Read something I actually have an interest for. Write on Blogger all day and comment on other blog posts. Do some decorating in my new apartment...

WOWOWWOOWOW

The list goes on and on...

BUT wait... Wow I am going to miss everyone.

I became so close with everyone this semester, in particular a couple of girl friends and a couple of guy friends I never thought I would ever become close with. I guess this is what it feels to begin to miss something very beautiful.

I spent it wonderfully in class this semester. In policy I blew my head out and in the other two classes I learned material that will help me for the rest of my being.

I thank everyone for making this semester the best semester I have had so far in my life. I wish you all happy holidays and to always smile even when times are hard!

Keep it cool man!!

Thoroughly Pissed--Trayvon Martin case

I am truly upset that the murderer of Trayvon Martin is free as of today. I was really hoping he would at least not get the opportunity to get bailed out of jail. This sucks because if it were someone else with less of a privilege than the one he has, they would still have been in jail or no longer with us in this world. Any thoughts? Please!

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/08/09/george-zimmerman-evidence_n_1762383.html?1344554578&ncid=webmail1

Colorado Shooting

Gosh I don't know how to even start this topic but this shooting is pretty intense. I don't know how someone can take a simple imagination as to want to be a character from a comic or movie and try to re-enact it into real life. I mean things don't work like that. So many people died for such a ridiculous idea that this person had. Let all those wonderful people who passed in the shooting rest in peace, and let the one's in the hospital heal soon and go on with their daily life. 

The killer, I don't know what to say but honestly, he shouldn't even be called by his name but simply the killer and be tried for what he did.